I need the ending.

Geez, I was half expecting WP to strike my account off. Oh well.

So… I am now having hols, and waiting for the goddamn results which I know is going to be so ugly (the worst ever). Frankly, even though I know I did badly, but I am still wishing for some miracle, and hopefully it will work wonders like it always did. But then again, I have never been that lazy before, so… (its self-explanatory).

Anyways, I have been working as an Research Asst to an Engineering Prof, I know, I know, Engineering is sooo not me. However, whatever gives me the money right? And it sounds cool. God, it is really cool. And I have to stop saying The Divine’s name in vain. This is how cool it can be : I just told my parents last Friday that “I will be outstation till Monday”. !!! I went to Philippines, and get  to talk to this nice group of people, albeit their freaky glares.

Now, it is just waiting for the right time to go and splurge! And yeah pleaseee, I have treated my family, so it is all mine now!

And have I mentioned that I love laughing at my brothers now, who are slogging to study before school re-opens??!! I hope I get to do that next year though.

Live Long And Prosper.

Edited: I just got the shock of my life when I notice that a teacher sent me an e-mail, but its directed to another teacher’s (my ex-PE teacher) email add.

I forgot that I have a blog. Sorry.

I got a bloody B for A-level MTL. 

Hence, am very disappointed in self, am considering re-taking it. 

My dad thinks I should.

My mom said it’s ok, and I should not waste time. And she knows that I HATE MT.

I know you must think I am a loser for even thinking about it, and going all miserable like all hell is going to break loose (or is it lose?). 

I must say that this is the worse I ever gotten for MT, knowing that this is the ONLY subject that I can ace in. 

Even though my parents seem okay about it, I know they are also a tad disappointed. Especially when my mother said (jokingly? sarcastically?) “to be honest, even I myself had never gotten any lesser than an A for MT” 

Woah I must say that she is really good at consoling people.

On another note: I MISS MY FRIENDS! WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU PEOPLE!<3

The current-albeit how old it is-song that lifts my mood when I have to rot with my books

Lyrics

Nooooo I am not wasted, as in you know the pernicious type of wasted. It’s just school. Assignments have been positive for the moment, but I hate the looks of my room now. It freaking looks like a library, except that mine looks like it’s in need of an experienced librarian asap.

And I kinda have no real purpose to be here, because as I said school has been okay, just tooo okay. It’s a routine, ok shit now I am imagining all of us as a part of a production chain. Mundane.

Oh yes I remember my purpose now, Nadiah asked me to write some nonsense here.

“Close your eyes, escape this town for a little while”

I am referring to school. I can totally feel that I am subdued and had succumbed to the bloody energy draining monster, nicknamed school.

I have been feeling as if I was in a dream for the past two weeks, kinda emotionless. Not happy, but not too depressed either, just booored. Think it’s taking over my brain also, but then again my brain always feel like it is being raided. Once I was in the toilet, and I was feeling cautious. I was afraid that I might be dreaming and I am doing embarassing things in front of people who are not invited to watch. Hence I pinched myself. It was painful. But then again, I was afraid again, because you can kinda feel pain when u are dreaming also whaaat.

And hence I conclude that life is getting too boring.

I think one of my cousin is in IJ. Oh no no, she is not a J1, she is a J2, just like me. Same year, seen her ard since last yr, but how come it only came to me this afternoon when we were in the toilet??? Oh shit. If she was one of the nicer relatives it would be fine to me, but I kinda dislike her, and I think the feelings mutual. I hope we don’t recognise each other, cos I am so going to forget about the revelation to save my brain cells for more significant things.

I am so freaking angry with my mother.

I know this is not the first time.

I lost my momentum because of her stupidity or maybe to be more apt, her laziness.

Guess what? She did’nt wash any of my shirt, and I only got to know early in the freaking morning when I was going to bath. How the hell she expects me to go to school, shirtless ar?!

Things were working out well for me (except for the deliberate absence on CNY) and I have been coming to school like a good student, and now NOW I have to be absent just because of this matter, on the last day without the J1s at that, when I freaking wants to go to school.

I feel really dissapointed. That I lost the momentum, But then again, it’s not my fault so maybe it’s not counted. Hehehehhe.

Shit.

There’s PE tomorrow, and I think it is intervals. Fuck I’d rather run all the way than doing intervals and lose my balance.

Back to what I actually wanted to write,

today must have been my most bimbo day ever, or maybe I should say I had the most bimbotic moment today. During Econs tutorial, yeah I know I must congratulate myself for the perfect timing.

The thing was like a phenomenon. ahahhahaha. Somewhat a domino effect also lah, but I have been confused and blur the whole day lah so yeah it may not truly fit the bill, but because it all started with Sharan, whom thought the teacher was so fast suddenly and went to qn 2b when she is still on qn 2a. He went up to the front all confident with his mojo, and showed the teacher qn 2b instead of 2a. And the teacher was shocked lah, yeah yeah I know this is the longer route around the story.

And here comes my part. I don’t know why but I always get either shocked(Econs) or simply oblivious(Chemistry) to the fact that my name is called out.  So I took about 30 seconds to collect myself and my paper(according to Sharan lah, who seems to have timed me), and swaggered to the teacher (according to Sharan again) full of confidence of my own mojo or it must have been the early signs of bimbo-ism, to show her my answer to qn 2b.

After reading the first paragraph, my teacher noticed that there’s something wrong with my answer, or should I re-phrase, something wrong with my brain. Because the answer looks like it is meant for qn 2a, but uhuh it also has the answers to qn 2b at the bottom-which I just realised-and my teacher asked me lah. First I just said “ There!” while I was standing behind my table. I said the same thing again the second time, and also the third. Now it got even whinier as it goes on. By this time, the class is already laughing, I am panicking and Jo and Sharan are asking the teacher to slap me. T_T Then Sharmini came up with the brilliant idea of asking me to go up to the teacjer and show her the asnwer, and so I did. But it did’nt stop there. I can’t find my answer, but I KNOW I FUCKING DID IT! Yeah I started to kinda argue with the teacher, if you call whining ” It’s there” and ” I did it!” while shaking up and down arguing lah.

For the love of God, I really don’t realise that I was doing whatever I did.

To top it all of, with the cherry on top, Ashraf came up to give his answer to the same qn I was supposed to present. Wonder what he wrote?

       “ As the saying goes, health is wealth. Healthcare…..” 

and he continued writing about vaccines and viruses, when mind you this is the answer to an Economics essay question. I have to say that Ashraf may have brought Economics to a new higher level.

Ok now I am done.

Oh Fuck PE tomorrow. NOOOOOO